24.1.04
if only it was as easy and convenient as tossing a coin to decide.
if cowardice is the word to summarise it all, so be it.
i need to convalesce.
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23.1.04
of all the songs in the entire cd, the comp cannot read that particular one. urgh. what luck..
subconsciously, the first thing i did when i woke up was to search for the sunyanzi cd. *sigh*
daph just called. i love her! *huggies* she asked if i received her cny sms and said that she was wondering if i was alright and if anything had happened to me because i didnt reply. heh. so sweet of her. but a bit weird also lar, she sent me the sms two whole days ago? hah. but paiseh la, i didnt reply to many cny smses because ive run out of smses. sheesh.
hope to get some work done today. it's getting difficult nowadays to constantly remind myself what im in nj for.
i miss orchard road.
pling, it's been great fun talking to you these couple of days and exchanging our experiences abt certain ppl. thankies! :D i hope you'll be happy again real soon, and if you're ever as desperate for company as i am [sometimes], i can always accompany you k. take care!
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waiting for your reply. hope im not the fool again this time, because i wont be able to take another similar setback. it'll send me shrivelling up into hibernation and no, i cannot afford it all over again. it's tearing up my heart.
i wonder why im so susceptible to bouts of loneliness lately - a stark juxtaposition during the festive season.
i still miss my girl friends.
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21.1.04
went home after cny celebrations ystday. was so dead tired but couldnt fall asleep. ended up wasting two whole hours at home doing nothing. went bowling after that. wj told me not to trash him, but in the end, i was the one being trashed. sheesh, my scores were pathetic. oh wells. accepted defeat readily anyway. saw fah khe at the bowling alley and she couldnt recognize me when i called out to her. heh.
went back to the interchange and parted with wj. mood changed drastically - for the worse. felt down in the dumps and wanted company. took the bus back but didnt want to get down when i reached my stop. didnt feel like going home. sat there and called ogl. he told me to go home since i was already so near. took his advice and went home. felt like crying. =/ [for no apparent reason!] felt super lousy but fatigue soon set in and i fell asleep. must be the effects of pms. *shrugs*
i want to go to school badly. i want to watch the sunrise on your face, it's asphyxiating here.
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20.1.04
cny celebrations tmr. still undecided abt going back to crez. *sighs* to go or not to go...
quite a lot of things happened today but i find it hard to write it all out in words.
2.4 run was pathetic. never felt so pathetic in my entire life. haha. but at least i had alvin t and weejin's company, was super spastic. weejin was so nice, he ran an extra round with alvin and i. haix...canoeists' stamina really different from others. *shakes head* tsk tsk. then the two stupid guys sprinted at the last leg...didnt wait for me, hmmpf. but of cos one of them finally relented, haha. three cheers for alvin! hah.
think my school's western food really rocks. haha. yays! getting addicted le. :)
this morning was quite funny. i walked right past choryen on the bus for two reasons: i) i couldnt really recognize him ii) i saw some idiot at the back and got distracted. haha, sorry ar, choryen. :)
havent been with girlfriends much lately...quite sad. felicia, weiting and yunhsuan...i'll be back one day, haha.
was very very distracted during chem lecture today. like sheesh, i made a stupid mistake every single time i tried to copy something down. eventually, i gave up. was no use trying too hard. too tired.
feeling a bit disoriented.
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19.1.04
yays! feeling so much better today thanks to school. sure beats being cooped up at home. :)
saw jeremy at the busstop this morning and wanted to pass him the thingy...was so frustrating. couldnt find it even after rummaging through my whole bag, to the extent of making him hold my stuff while i searched for it. sheesh. must have looked so darn pathetic exposing the contents in my bag. -_- and then i rmbred which pocket i kept it in. Urgh... have to look for him tmr again, shucks.
gave alvin t the oreos. haha. he looked so delighted. heh...funny guy.
lotsa hw before cny...and most of it is physics. :( have to draw lotsa graphs and so coincidentally, ive run out of graph paper...and that gave me the excuse to stop doing and come online instead. haha.
im keeping my options open.
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